Never felt so depressed before.
It’s only the first day of my masters course and there is this feeling of dread and gloom. UKM is like the ‘Dementors’ of Harry Potter story book, it sucks life out of you… as if you will never feel happy again!
It’s like a gloomy, cloud cast day where it seems like raining but it doesn’t.
It’s like being stucked in a large empty hangar… alone.
It’s like the world is in the colour of grey. Not red, blue or green. Not orange, purple or yellow. Not even black and white. Just grey.
No wonder almost none of my course mates couldn’t wait to leave UKM for the job market. The few of us who came back, we wonder how in the h*ll did we managed to survive 3 years. And how are we going to get through the next nine/ten months.
I feel so lost, so alone, so afraid.
Somebody, please give me a scholarship to study in the UK or US!
P.S. Maybe I just need a girlfriend to bring some balance to my life, heh heh!